First love

Love.... God i love love. But does anyone really know the definition of love. No they dont. They assume that love is something you can do for the rest of ur life. Love only really comes once in ur life. When people get divorsed and they say they found a new person to love they dont really mean it. Love comes once and once u say it there is no taking it back. The person they divorsed or broke up with. They still have their heart. For teenagers its diffrent. Were young and stupid thinking that love is a limitless thing. I even thought so. I never said those words until about a week ago. I truly meen it and so does he. There may be alittle age gap but that dosent matter. Im in love and im proud of it. Hes going to be my one and only..... i love him.

Out of one cage into a new one.m..

Today is a new day.... Today was the last day of school and i wasnt ready for the summer at all. On the ighter side me and tristan were texting and he said that everythime he sees me that he falls in love with me. He feels bonded to me like soul mates. I dont know what to do because i went to school today and itislike he totally forgot about saying thoses things . I rode with him on the bus ride home and he told me he wasnplanning on losing his virginity over the summer. I was trying yo figure out who but he would only tell me that i should know who. But i dont thats the problem . I wanthim but i dont want to sound desprete . God i hate not knowing :(

Life choices... Finally getting out of school! But in a weird way I feel like im home there. The teachers are great. I have the most amazimg freinds to. In well in most cases I dont want school to get out beceause of this guy. He says the nicest things over txting but when we get to school its all bullshit. Ya and my teacher......... think youll get it. Over the summer im stuck with my dad while my mom works all the time . I wish that i had some free time on my hands. Ok so 2 days ago i went on a class trip to an island. I was partnered up with a hot tall blonde guy ( Tristan ) and we were really hitting it off. Then we ran into one of his freinds Emma and finally it hit me WE werent hitting it off I was and he was bored out of his mind. I left a few minutes later and i got a text from him asking where i was. I told him flat out why would u care where i was. I havent seen him sense he went back home when we got back and hes been gone for two days .... hopefully we get to talk :D